József Attila: Inventory Closed (Kész a leltár in English)
Kész a leltár (Hungarian)
Magamban bíztam eleitől fogva -
Inventory Closed (English)
I trusted in myself from the beginning -
If nothing's there that's worth the cost of winning,
there's nothing left to lose. Our death's no heavier
than that of voiceless beasts, who cease forever.
Even in mortal fear, I kept my station -
was born, received, found individuation.
I paid each man according to his measure,
loved frankly who gave freely of his pleasure.
Woman who played with me for promised joy
I took in good faith - let her have her toy!
I swabbed the ship, jerked up the bucketful.
Among sly masters, played the stupid fool.
I sold bread, paperbacks, and toy windmills,
newspapers, poems - whichever paid the bills.
No field of victory, nor servile rope,
but a soft bed will be my end, I hope.
When, come what may, the inventory's done,
I died of life - I'm not the only one.