Alver, Betti: The Machine (Masin in English)

Põhjuseks, miks ma just niiviisi maalin nagu mina maalin, on minu soov: olla masin.
A.Warhol

1
Asjata sa nutta luksud.
Asjata
valu tuiklev kaasa tuksud.
Asjata
tume tusk su rinnas kaevleb.
Süda vaevleb,
vastuseta piinas vaevleb
asjata.

Murumätas lilli uhkab
asjata.
Tuleb talv ja taevas tuhkab
asjata.
Teispool viirastuste valet
otsid palet,
otsid olematut palet
asjata.
Igavesti asjata.

2
Ning äkki jäi seisma mu süda.
Rinnas raudse võrega võll,
keset ajude arsenaali
mina kuulsin oma looja signaali
ja vastasin kohe:
kill-kõll.

Mina läksin ja tegin mis vaja.
Käes mu venna verine jakk,
väljas keegi needis mu nime.
Keset ajude arsenaali
juba saingi ma uue signaali
ja toimisin kohe:
tikk-takk.

Mina läksin ja tegin mis vaja.
Rinnas raudse võrega võll,
keset ajude arsenaali
jälle ootan ma järgmist signaali.

Kuulen käsku ja ütlen:
kill-kõll.
Täidan käsku ja tapan:
tikk-takk.

The reason I paint like I paint is mu wish to be a machine.
A. Warhol

1
In vain you wheeze and sob.
In vain
you pulse along when nerve-ends throb.
In vain
your breast is gored by dark distress.
Reactionless,
you feel your heartbeat’s strain and stress
in vain.

A piece of turf sprouts flowers
in vain.
The winter sky turns dark and lowers
in vain.
Beyond the veils of time and space
you seek a face,
you seek a non-existent face
in vain.
Always in vain

2
Then all at once my heart ceased to beat.
In my chest-grill an axle and crank,
in my brain-centre’s stock of munitions
I received my maker’s transmissions
and responded at once:
clink clank.

I went and did as was required.
Here’s the blood-stained coat off my brother’s back.
Outside they were cursing my name.
In my brain-centre’s stock of munitions
I received a new set of transmissions
and functioned at once:
tick tack

I went and did as was required.
In my chest-grill an axle and crank,
in my brain-centre’s stock of munitions
I wait for the latest transmissions.

I take orders and say:
clink clank
I obey and I slay:
tick tack.